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Friday, October 29, 2010

tell her/him if you love her/him before you regret it(:

"i want us to be more than friend"
Current mood: lonely
Category: Romance and Relationships

*I’ve got this story from a friend.
She got it after reading a story from someone’s blog.
so i extract this story here because i think it’s worth a read^^
Enjoy reading~

 
As I sat there in English
class,
I stared at the girl next to me.She was
my so-called ’best friend’. I
stared at her long, silky hair. I
wished she were mine, but she didn’t
notice me like that.And I knew it.


After class she walked up to me and
asked me for the notes she had missed
the day before, and I handed them to
her.She said ’thanks’ and gave me a
kiss on the cheek. I wanted to
tell her. I wanted her to know that I
don’t want to be just friends. I
love her, but I’m just too shy. And I
don’t know why.



11th Grade...
The phone rang. It was her on the
other end. She was in tears, mumbling
on and on about how her love had
broke her heart.

 
She asked me to come over because she
didn’t want to be alone, so I
did. As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes,
wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, a
Drew Barrymore movie,and three bags of
chips, she decided to go to sleep. She
looked at me,said ’thanks,’ and gave
me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell
her. I want her to know that I don’t
want to be just friends. I love her,
but I’m just too shy.And I don’t know
why.


12th Grade...
The day before prom she walked to
my locker. ’My date is sick,’ she
said. He’s not going to go. Well,
I didn’t have a date and in 7th grade
we made a promise that if neither
of us had dates we would go together
just as ’best friends,’ so we
did.
Prom night, after everything was
over,I was standing at her front door
step. I stared at her. She smiled at me
and stared at me with her crystal
eyes. I want her to be mine, but she
doesn’t think of me like that,and I
know it. Then she said, ’I had
the best time,thanks!’ and gave me a
kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her.
I want her to know that I don’t
want to be just friends. I love her,
but I’m just too shy. And I don’t know
why...



Graduation Day...
A day passed. A week passed. A
month passed. Before I could blink, it
was graduation day. I watched as
her perfect body floated like an angel
up on stage to get her diploma. I
wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t
notice me like that, and I knew
it. Before everyone went home, she came
to me in her smock and hat, and
she cried as I hugged her. Then, she
lifted her head from my shoulder
and said, ’You’re my best friend,
thanks!’ and gave me a kiss on
the cheek. I want to tell her. I want
her to know that I don’t want to be
just friends. I love her, but I’m just
too shy. And I don’t know why...

 

A Few Years Later...
Now, I sit in the pews of the
church. She is getting married,now. I
watched her say, ’I do’ and drive
off to her new life, married to
another man. I wanted her to be
mine but she didn’t see me like that,
and I knew it. But before she
drove away, she came to me and
said, ’You came!’ She said, ’thanks!’
and kissed me on the cheek.I want to
tell her. I want her to know that I
don’t want to be just friends. I love
her, but I’m just too shy. And I
don’t know why...



Funeral...
Years pass, and I looked down at
the coffin of the girl who used to be
my best friend.’ At the service
they read a diary entry she had wrote
in her high school years. This is
what it read: I stare at him wishing he
were mine. But he doesn’t notice
me like that, and I know it. I want to
tell him. I want him to know that
I don’t want to be just friends. I
love him, but I’m just too shy, and I
don’t know why. I wish he would
tell me he loved me...i wish I did
too...i thought to myself, and I
cried.

 

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

kebosanan yg tak terhingga..

aku bosan!! duk umah, x wat pape pon.
mkn, tido, dgr lagu. haih!
dh mcm penganggur tak bertauliah.
aku malas nk g sekolah, tu la ponteng satu minggu ni.
bhaha.
well, g sekolah pn bukan belajar.! nth ppe je aktiviti yg ckgu nk bg.
ari tu tdgr pn. saliah mmbebel kt bilik guru.
bla bla bla bla buat kuih bahulu. my gosh!
suruh la wt bbq ke. kn happening sikit.
ishhhhh. lg satu! dye ade ckp,
pn saliah: eh, kalau ceramah pasal keselamatan dlm rumah nk pnggil sape eh?
haha, ceramahhh? kem slm jee la klau nk suh aku dgr.
balik kmpg lagy bgus!
hmmmmmmmm, tgh tgh bosan ni.
aku dr td sibuk duk melukis kt lappy ni. nth pape je. nk tgkkk??? hee

say GOODBYE to PMR!!

wahahahaha. at last, PMR is over. dh bolehh kawen! bhaha. choyy.
aku boleh tidoooo sepanjang hari.
walaoo. semalam last day. dpt pulak subject fav aku:
-math
-kh
amik kaw! punye la semanagt jwb paper. haha. tpy paper kh susah!
bangang betol sape yg buat soalan tu! mcm nk kne flying kiss je. haha
math pulak aku dh check. xde salah beb. woah, bangga bangga! :D
n semalam jugak kitorg celeb smpena hbis pmr tu.
tp kesiann fatyn ade paper b.cina ari ni. haha
mase nk balik semalam,
masing masing tunjuk belang.
keluar lah segala tepung ngn air air botol dorg uh.
ade gk yg terjerit jerit mcm kne rogol.
aku, nurul ngn fatin tgh on the way nk kuar sklh gk ni, nmpk ekin ngn iqa kt blkg tembok tu.
nmpk dorg mcm tnggu someone je. *huda kot. then wt bodo je la.
skali dh dekat tu, dorg lari sekuat ati kt ktorg dgn dua2 belah tgn ade botol penuh air.
mak ghaii, dpt mandi percuma dpn org ramai an.
*jimat bil air kt umah. bhaha.
mcm nk kne singgong je pale dyorg. urgh
ehem, dh gelak gelak + azan kt telinga dyorg tu, smbong jln lg nk g kt kete.
dlm keadaan baju yg basah n ati yg agk geram!
jalan jalan jalan, nmpk lak membe kelas, alyssa ngn lisa tgh sapu tepung kt muke org lain.
dorg tgk aku, aku tgk dorg balik dgn mate yg mengancam.
haha, terus x brani nk taruk tepung kt muke aku.
brrrrrrrrrr, time kete aku lalu depan sklh, astagha! ramai gile dak f3
mandi tepung. fuhhh. mmg bestt gile mase tu.
mcm balik zaman kecik2 dlu pn ade. wakaka.
convent mmg sporting. i <3 you.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

my big day..

14th of august 2008..
start dri tarikh tu, bby bangga and happy sgt to have life partner mcm b. start tarikh tu jugak, kite share evrything together. bby happy sgt2. b ubah hari2 bby jd ceria. smpai sekarang, bby xboleh klau b xde. b pn tau kn, bile b x text bby satu hari je, i will try to reach you smpai kte dpt ckp or text. bby tak boleh duduk diam bile b x text. b, i love how you treat me. ure sooo sweet, loving, caring, kind, sume2 lah. bby admit, bby kuat cmbru. mmg x sng hdup bile b cte psal pmpuan lain. mcm nk cubit2 je lepaskn geram! lagi2 bile b cte psal ur ex2 tu. grrrr. mcm nk ggit b pn ade tau! but when i knew dat you've planned our future, sume prasaan tu brubh jd makin sayang dekat b. sayang sgt sgt. bby harap ape yg b rncg tu sume akn blaku, cuz bby x sbr sgt nk spend pagi petang siang mlm dengan b! b ckp b nk ank ramai ramai. haha. comel sgt. then ape lg ek. hm, b suke bwk kete laju2. bby tk suke! but as long b bwk elok2 then fine la. then b suke orange colour, b suke number 2, b suke amik gmbr, suke g tepi pntai, n bnyk lg lah! oh ya, mase kite gayut, b suke bahas dgn bby. n b slalu menang. pastu b suke ckp 'a loser always loose'. haha. yela sayang. b.... b noty, b comel, b pndai wt bby gelak, wt bby mrh n geram pn pndai! sayang, ure my best best life partner ever. i hope we can stay like this foreve.
p/s:
I LOVE YOU!

i heart you!

- baik baik sayang
-remembering sunday
-khatimah cinta
-the girl
-your guardian angel
-dear god
-yang sempurnakanku
-sorry(buckcherry)
merindukanmu
-jangan pernah berubah
-saat terakhir
-your call
-no promises
-terus terang
-barney!
-menunggu
-hanya ingin kau tahu
-demi cinta
-di antara kalian
-with me
-pieces
-tak bisa memiliki
-tercipta untukku
-semua tentang kita
-fireflies
-yang terindah
-yakinlah aku menjemputmu
-sang mantan
-kembali pulang
-cheatercheaterbestfriendeater
-rhythm of love
-baby i love you
-baby(justin bieber)
-you smile i smile
-sebelum cahaya
-through my window
-dear maria count me in
-dirty talk
-fall for you
-im yours
-sampai menutup mata
-one time
-suara ku berharap
-that should be me
-when i look at you

p/s:
sayang, sumeee lagu lagu tu kte share together kn? everytime bby dgr lagu lagu tu, memang akn rinduu gile gile gile kat b. i nvr forget what you gave to me. i love to hear your voice n i wish i could get to hear them foreve! and laguu : REMEMBERING SUNDAY tu lah lagu kite. b suke nyanyikn lagu tu kn? ure sooo sweet. then, b dgr pulak lagu BAIK BAIK SAYANG. b ckp lagu tu kene dgn kite n u wanna change our song to dat song. n i said ok. n now b, dat song dh jd your favorite. i <3 it too. sangat sangat. (:

Friday, October 8, 2010

this is ONLY for you...

BAIK BAIK SAYANG

aku tak ingin kau menangis bersedih
sudahi air mata darimu.
yang aku ingin erti hadir driku
kn mghapus dukamu sayangg
kerna bagiku kau kehormatanku
dengarkn dengarkn aku...

hanya satu pintaku
untukmu dan hidupmu
baik baik sayang
ada aku untukmu..
hanya satu pintaku
di siang dan malam mu
baik baik sayang
kerna aku untuk mu...

semua keinginan akan aku lakukan
sekuat semampu ku sayang
kerna bagiku kau kehormatanku
dengar dengarkan aku...

hanya satu pintaku
untuk mu dan hidupmu
baik baik sayang
ada aku untukmu...
hanya satu pintaku
di siang dan malammu
baik baik sayang
ada aku untukmu....

*THANK YOU B.. xoxo


Friday, October 1, 2010

yaya and aiman

this story is about yaya and her bf, amirul aiman...
i got this story from fatyn. 

10th may 2010

i just got home from school n i received 2 text message from you. i ignored them and went bathing. after taking my bath, i watched tv for awhile and i realized that i haven't replied your messages so i quickly went to my room to take my cell. i received another 2 messages from you so equally, i received 4 messages from you.

you: B?
you: B? Mane b?
you: Reply la:(
you: B? Mana b? knape lambat sgt balik?

i was seriously waaay too scared if he might be scolding me for not replying his messages for quite awhile so, i quickly messaged him, to not make him worry about me.

me: sayang? sorry tak reply td. i balik sekolah terus mandi td. then i tgk tv i terlupa message you. sorry? you marah ke?
you: oh okay okay. tak, i tak marah. tp jgn buat i risau k bie?
me: okay okay sayang. i'm sorry.
you: tkpe, mwa mwa hehe. b dekat mane ni?
me: dekat rumah. lepas ni nk pegi makan dgn mak. you?
you: ala, nak makan dekat mane? jumpe lah i b :( i dekat cabin. bosan.
me: i LAPAR!
you: makan dgn i k bie?
me: i want to but mak suruh teman dia lah sayang.
you: okay okay, i main badminton dgn budak budak lah.
me: okay, take care busuk.
you: mane ade busuk. b la buchuk macham. kalau balik awal, dtg rumah i :(
me: eh, sejak bila jadi rempit? okay, tgk lah dulu.
you: takde tgk tgk, kena jugak.
me: ye yeeee.
you: alaaaa.
me: huh?
you: b marah:(
me: eh, tkde ah, karut je.
you: hm okay.
me: aiyk?
you: dtg!
me: insyaAllah, kalau sempat. kalau tak, jumpa malam k syg?
you: okay b. b, i nak main badminton jap?
me: okay okay, bye. love you. take care, dear. see you.
you: okay, love you so much. take care too. miss you love you. see you too, b. jumpa i jugak hari ni, tak kira:(
me: okay syg, don't want that sad face.
you: okay okay:D dah
me: main happy lagi, k bye muah
you: mwa, love you.

but then, i didnt manage to come and meet him in the evening. so i did meet him at night (the last night we spent our time together). so my mum sent me to his condo at 8 something. but he wasn't there then i messaged him.

me: mana you? i kat cabin dah.
you: jap. i tengah siap nk turun,b.

after a few minutes, my friends came and sit in a table with me. and we talked and laughed waaay too much. and after a few minutes later then, he came but yeah, i know he would'nt come to me first. so he went to cafe to buy cigarettes if i'm not mistaken...... after that, you came and sit beside me. then my friends seemed curious when they looked at arwah.

alyn: man, asal muka kaw lain do?
bay: aah do!
you: mana ada lain lah. you, muka i lain ke??
me: ntah, mcm sama je kot haha. lain ke dia, eryn?
eryn: aku rasa sama je.

fine then. when we got bored, we went to the badminton court to play badminton. and yeahs, i was the one who took the racquet and you asked me to put it back because you wanna spend your time with me at that night.

you: b, takyah la main. dduk sini dgn i.
me: alaa, kejap je lah.
you: mhm, okay.

when i was playing badminton, you can't stop staring at me while smiling. everytime i looked at you, you were staring at me at smiling. and after a few minutes, i sat beside you and hold your right hand.

me: you, knapa you lain harini?
you: mana ada i lain lah b. i sama je.
me: okay okay.

then after 10 minutes kot, nisha asked me to accompany her to the lobby. and i said okay. but you refused to let me go. then i told you that it takes only 5 minutes. then you said k. when i came back to the court, you were playing badminton with ..(i cant recall who). when, i entered the court, as most of people know that the door sounds annoying and i opened it, everyone will look at me and you shouted ' B! '. and i said 'Oh hai' with a very weird face. i was just making an annoying face like that hehe. and at 10.30 p.m, he took me to infront of the court.

you: *holding my face. b, pandang i.
me: *staring in his eyes.
you: ingat ni sampai bila bila. i sayang you sgt sgt. ingat ni! sayang sgt sgt.
me: i pun sayang you sgt sgt *small laughs
you: i sayang b sgt sgt. jgn tinggalkan i?
me: knpa you ckp mcmtu syg?
you: oh tak, just jgn tinggalkan i. k?
me: ye lah, i dah promise kan dulu? knpa you lain ni?
you: mana ada i lain lah syg. i sama je.

after a few minutes then, my mom called and asked me to go home. then,

me: you!
you: haaaa
me: nak i balik pukul brape?
you: ala, tak boleh balik, kena dduk dgn i.
me: betul betul boleh tak?
you: betul lah. ala, jgn lah balik:(
me: mengada ehhh. *on the phone, ma, ambik lagi 10 minutes lah.
mak: okayy

after 10 minutes later, mum messaged me telling that she has already at the guard house. then i told arwah, he quickly take my both hands and say

you: b, ingat apa i pesan td sampai bila bila tau.
me: okay okay, i promise lah you. pink swear? hahaha
you: hehe, pinky swear. *kiss
me: babaii
you: babai. i love you so much. take care
me: love you too, and you too.
you: k bie.

then i ran to mum's car and suddenly you shouted 'YAYA! I LOVE YOU!'. then i shouted back, ' I LOVE YOU TOO MUAH MUAH!'. that was the last time i heared your voice, till now im still wanting to hear your voice again, and all over again. but i know i cant. i hope you're in peace and surely, in a better and best place.
when i was in my car, i could see the badminton court and you were there flying kisses to me. that's soo sweet of you. and that was the last time i saw your face, your smile, and your everything. when i reached home, you messaged me.

you: b?
me: eh hi. cepatnye.
you: i rindu b
me: alolo rindu you jugak sayang.
you: tgh buat apa?
me: takde buat ape ape. i lapar lah.
you: sama lah, lapar.
me: pergi lah makan
you: nak pergi makan dgn alfiq jap boleh?
me: okay, pergi lah. take care.
you: k, jap. nak siap.
*i didnt reply.
you: b?
me: yes?
you: nape tak reply?
me: lah, cakap nak siap.
you: okay okay, i nak pegi makan tau.
me: okay, take care k.
you: okay. b, nak drive jap. jap g i msg balik.
me: alright, elok elok.
*after a few minutes
you: b?
me: yo
you: b jgn tinggalkan i?
me: syg, knpa dgn you ni?
you: tak, i takut b tinggalkan i.
me: mana ada lah :'(
you: alolo sorry sorry. dah dah.
me: jgn cakap mcmtu lg k?
you: okay okay, b i nak b ingt ni smpai bila bila. i sayang b sgt sgt. ingat ni!
me: okay sayang, i pun sayang you. lg lebih!

then you didnt reply my message. i was kinda curious, but i dont know why that night i didnt feel like calling you. i did asked my sister where were you but she said she dont know. my sister asked me to call you but i just dont know why i didnt make make the things i used to do, which is trying to reach you and message you until you replied mine. i didnt want to bother you lepak with your friends, maybe

so i fall asleep while waiting for you. i managed to sleep only for a few minutes. then, nisa called me. i didnt hear her calls at first. but then, my sister woke me up telling there's someone calling me. i answered her call and i was waay 'mamai' that time.

me: hello?
nisa: ya? yaya okay tak?
me: okay je, knpa?
nisa: ya, aiman dah takde ya.
me: huh?
nisa: ya, aiman dah takda ya. wake up, ya. wake up!
me: jgn mengarut lah nisa
*i end the call.

right after i end up with nisa's call, amar(eryn's boyfriend) called me

amar: hello ya.
me: ha, ada ape?
amar: wei, aku dekat gate kecik Emerald ni.
me: ha, asal?
amar: wei ya, aiman kau dah takda au. dia accident. kau nk dtg tak? aku amik kau.
me: aaaa, tkpe ah. bye
*end

then i quickly told both my parents that aiman has already became arwah. my dad asked me to go take my wudhuk and pray all the best for arwah. so i quickly go and give yassin to arwah. i repeat the surah, loads of times, non-stop. there were loads of friends calling and messaging me but i managed to answer only some of them because i didnt know what to say. my mind was blank and all i thought that moment was, only ARWAH.

and the saddest phone call i received on that morning was from hazmie. he cried when he was on the phone with me. we didnt get to say anything than crying out loud. i couldnt stop crying and hazmie told me to be strong. i didnt say anything. oh god, i cant believe im crying right now.

after half an hour later, dad asked me to go to the hospital with him.my mum dad and my sister followed to the hospital. when we arrived there, the first person i saw was kak aisyah (aiman's sister). she came to me and hugged me waay too tight! and both of us couldnt stop crying. after that, i hugged aiman's mum. she was crying too but i cant believe that she was waay too strong accepting the fact that her son was not here anymore.

i met some of my friends there, all i can say is i couldnt stop crying. my eyes looked like asdjkkzjfg, i dont know what to say. at the hospital, i didnt stop giving aiman non stop yassin. then, after half an hour, someone shouted 'amirul??' everyone stood up and quickly go to the forensik's room.

and the only 'thing' we saw was, Allahyarham Amirul Aiman's body, right in front of our eyes. i cried out loud. and it was the last time i hold his face. he was so cold. and he looked different. there was a scar on his head. it was because the BANG he had in the accident. i dont know how to say this, my mind was so blank that time and i dont believe i cried waay too bad that time.
* THE END!

B! lepas bc ni bby trus ingt kt b. dun leave me okayy? never ever leave me. i lovee you so damn damn much! you know that right, dear? mmmuuaahhh!